For 1 month and 22 days, I've been admiring you from a distance. Smiling insanely when you say hi. Blushing when you talk to me. Getting jealous when you talk to other girls. Staying back every other day just to watch you. Jumping when I see your name on my caller ID.
I don't know what I did, what I did to 'pressurize' you. Honestly speaking, I did not understand a single word of what she told me. I just nodded and concentrated on controlling those tears which were threatening to escape. I wanted to run to the toilet and let it all out.
Because of you, I'm always emotional unstabalized. My mood depended heavily on you. Life has been a roller coaster ride for me. Two different person tells me two very different things. I don't know who I should believe. But I chose to ignore the negative one, and focus on the positive one. Guess that there are the bad side about being so optimistic.
However, I believe that what is mine will be mine, and what isn't will never be. So I'll just let go. You'd come back if you belonged to me. I shall not spend anymore of my time on you.
Today was not good, I must say. I'm sure I'd totally flunk my history test because apparently, I suck at inference. Or should I say, I suck at phrasing. Dang it.
I missed the upper secondary debates yesterday, and it was such a waste! I really regretted going to training instead of watching the debates. Dang it, dang it.
And I hate you, dang you.
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